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Hell of drug-fuelled orgies and sex with Hugh Hefner left me wanting to drown myself, says Playboy bunny Holly Madison

WHEN Holly Madison went to live rent-free at the Playboy Mansion, she naively didn't realise there was going to be another price to pay: sex with Hugh Hefner.

Now 41, the aspiring model's early-20s dream of glamour quickly turned into an ugly nightmare – where she claims she was cut off from the outside world and strictly controlled.

Holly Madison's with Hug Hefner - her story about her time with Playboy is being made into a TV show
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Holly Madison's with Hug Hefner - her story about her time with Playboy is being made into a TV showCredit: Rex Features

Madison, who was with Hefner between 2001 and 2008, published an explosive memoir about her time with him and Playboy called Down the Rabbit Hole in 2015.

Now a TV adaptation of the book is in the works with Home and Away star Samara Weaving signed on to play Madison.

The series will dramatise what Madison saw going on behind the gates of the Playboy Mansion – where young women were given drugs and encouraged to take part in twice-weekly orgies with Hefner.

"They knew it was kind of a quote-unquote requirement for living there, and expected," Madison told Alpha XR News.

Madison, now 41, met Hefner when she was in her early 20s
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Madison, now 41, met Hefner when she was in her early 20sCredit: Rex Features

"And it had kind of a chore vibe, I felt."

Here's what Madison went through as the number one girlfriend in Hefner's harem.

Groups sex & 'thigh opener' pills

What started as a party soon became like prison for Madison.

She was just 20 and still at university when she met a friend of Hefner's while working as a waitress at Hooters.

Madison's connection with Playboy began when she attended pool parties at the mansion
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Madison's connection with Playboy began when she attended pool parties at the mansionCredit: Getty Images

The friend invited her to a party at the Playboy Mansion – she thought it would be a one-time thing, but soon found herself going to its Sunday pool parties every week.

After a year, she decided to try and become one of Hefner's girlfriends in order to continue living in Los Angeles.

She thought none of them actually had sex with the ageing porn mogul, who was then in his mid-70s.

But she quickly lost any illusions during her first "Club Night" out with Hefner and the other girlfriends when he offered her a Quaalude, telling her: "in the '70s they used to call these pills 'thigh openers.'"

(L-r): Melissa Taylor, Holly Madison, Hugh Hefner, Crystal Harris and Anna Berglund
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(L-r): Melissa Taylor, Holly Madison, Hugh Hefner, Crystal Harris and Anna BerglundCredit: Getty Images - Getty

She refused the drugs – but couldn't refuse later at the mansion when she was told it was time to go to Hefner's bedroom.

There, the women were expected to perform for him, and one of the other girlfriends pushed Madison towards Hefner.

"There was zero intimacy involved. No kissing, nothing," Madison wrote.

"It was so brief that I can't even recall what it felt like beyond having a heavy body on top of mine."

Madison soon realised the orgies happened like clockwork after the Club Nights, every Wednesday and Friday.

Bridget Marquardt, Kendra Wilkinson and Holly Madison in Scary Movie 4
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Bridget Marquardt, Kendra Wilkinson and Holly Madison in Scary Movie 4Credit: Rex Features

Pushed to the brink

It wasn't just sex that was regulated – Madison soon found she was being controlled in other ways too.

She had to abide by a strict 9pm curfew and she was made to give up her waitressing job, cutting her off from the outside world.

Madison (right) with Sheila Levell and Hefner at the mansion, where she lived under strict rules
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Madison (right) with Sheila Levell and Hefner at the mansion, where she lived under strict rulesCredit: Getty Images - Getty

Hefner would also make cruel comments about her appearance and he refused to let her see a therapist when she became depressed.

Madison says the situation became so desperate she considered ending her life.

"Drowning myself seemed like a logical way to escape the ridiculous life I was leading," she wrote.

"I just couldn't take my misery anymore."

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Madison after leaving Hefner - she says she'd felt stuck in a 'ridiculous life' at the mansion
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Madison after leaving Hefner - she says she'd felt stuck in a 'ridiculous life' at the mansionCredit: Rex Features

The situation began to improve in 2005 when, along with Hefner's other girlfriends Bridget Marquardt and Kendra Wilkinson, Madison starred in a reality series called The Girls Next Door.

She says they didn't receive a penny for the first series, but eventually it allowed her to make her own money and ultimately offered her a way to leave Hefner, which she did for good in 2009.

After Madison left him, Hefner married a model 60 years his junior, Crystal Harris, in 2012.

He died five years later aged 91.

Hef showing off his girlfriend Holly outside a hotel in 2003
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Hef showing off his girlfriend Holly outside a hotel in 2003Credit: Getty Images - Getty

String of sordid stories

When Madison published her book, co-star Kendra Wilkinson poured scorn on its account of life at the mansion.

Wilkinson, who defended Hefner as an "amazing human being", claimed Madison wasn't being truthful about her experience – or her motivation for publishing a tell-all memoir.

Madison (right) with her Girls Next Door co-stars Kendra Wilkinson, far left, and Bridget Marquardt
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Madison (right) with her Girls Next Door co-stars Kendra Wilkinson, far left, and Bridget MarquardtCredit: AP:Associated Press

“Holly, you can tell, had this ulterior motive every minute being at the Mansion, and that motive was – it was clear as day – she wanted Hef’s kids, she wanted a piece of Playboy and she wanted to marry Hef for, obviously, his will,” Wilkinson told People.

“That didn’t happen. So what do you think’s going to happen? Revenge. So we’re witnessing some revenge here.”

Madison, for her own part, dismissed Wilkinson's objections – and Madison's bleak picture of the Playboy Mansion is just one of many similar stories to come out in recent years.

Wilkinson herself wrote about the chore-like sexual obligations of being one of Hefner's girlfriends, saying she first had intercourse with him when she was 18 and he was 78.

It was like a job. Clock in, clock out. It’s not like I enjoyed having sex with him.

Kendra Wilkinson

"I had to be very drunk or smoke lots of weed to survive those nights – there was no way around it," Wilkinson wrote in her book.

“At about the minute mark, I pulled away and it was done. It was like a job. Clock in, clock out. It’s not like I enjoyed having sex with him.”

Former Playmate Izabella St. James also shared sordid secrets from the mansion in her autobiography, Bunny Tales.

She described a regularly degrading process of asking Hefner for money.

Madison worked as a junior photo editor at the magazine for a storyline in Girls Next Door
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Madison worked as a junior photo editor at the magazine for a storyline in Girls Next DoorCredit: Playboy

"We had to go to Hef's room, wait while he picked up all the dog poo off the carpet – and then ask for our allowance," St. James wrote.

"We all hated this process. Hef would always use the occasion to bring up anything he wasn't happy about in the relationship.

"Most of the complaints were about the lack of harmony among the girlfriends – or your lack of sexual participation in the 'parties' he held in his bedroom."

Holly's heartbreak

After leaving the mansion, Madison found fame in her own right.

In 2009 she competed in the US version of Strictly, Dancing With The Stars, finishing in 11th place.

Holly Madison with Pasquale Rotella with their daughter Rainbow on their wedding day in 2013
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Holly Madison with Pasquale Rotella with their daughter Rainbow on their wedding day in 2013Credit: Getty Images

And she starred in her own reality show, Holly's World, about her new life and career in Las Vegas.

In 2013, she started married music business boss Pasquale Rotella in a lavish ceremony in Disneyland.

Her former Girls Next Door castmate Bridget Marquardt was a bridesmaid.

But after having two kids together, Madison and Rotella ended their five-year marriage in 2019.

She reportedly began dating Ghost Adventures paranormal investigator Zak Bagans the same year.

Madison is now looking forward to seeing her story played by Ready Or Not star Samara Weaving.

"I couldn't be more thrilled with this casting," Madison told her million Instagram followers yesterday.

Holly Madison talks about her personal relationship with Hugh Hefner

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